“When your number-one priority is getting a boyfriend, you’re more inclined to see a beautiful girl and think, ‘Oh, she’s gonna get that hot guy I wish I was dating,'” she says. “But when you’re not boyfriend-shopping, you’re able to step back and see other girls who are killing it and think, ‘God, I want to be around her.'” – an excerpt from The Rolling Stones Taylor Swift cover story.
I really liked the whole vibe of that interview when I read it through snoozy eyes a few nights ago. I was waiting for Tim to come to bed while he ran around doing last minute activities after we used up all the productive hours of our evening to finish the Lord of The Rings trilogy (I’m obsessed). While I am not “boyfriend-shopping”, I am guilty of feeling threatened by the girls who are “killing it” as T-Swift says, whether that be in their schooling, career, looks or travels. I can recognize that some of my thoughts, feelings or traits have been dealt to me through life experiences and the actions of other people, but I also recognize that I am the only one who can widdle them down until they don’t exist anymore. Jealousy isn’t something that occupies much of my day to day life, but when it comes to my relationship, it oozes out of me so effortlessly. Since Fall has always felt like a time to start again and embrace inevitable change, I’m using this season to hold myself accountable to making my own change- pursuing happier, healthier thoughts. After all, how horrifically ironic would it be to push away the love of your life due to fear of losing him?
In other news, it’s been an eventful few weeks! Since my last post I’ve stood beside my sister as she became a wife, took a week long holiday of surfing, drinking, relaxing, and snacking to Kelowna, BC, and the following two weeks in Saskatoon, SK where Tim and I spent our weekdays trying not to distract each other and our weekends hanging with friends and exploring the nude beach. My creative wheels have been endlessly turning all the while and I’m excited for the line up of posts I have coming for you! Enjoy the last half of your weekend. xo!